meiosis the human experience

the collective, and at its core, a neutrino of core beliefs. a dynamic range of unlimited human potential sharing a strong love for the well being of the whole. an interconnected internetwork of environments providing a variety of consumables. sharing information in quantum waves of diverse human subconscious. a desire to communicate upon this neutrino of core beliefs. traveling the world experiencing nature and culture. a longing for learning and sharing innovation for the betterment of earth and her creatures. father sun, bringer of the light, giver of life, the provider.

Addiction- yes even you-

we are all guilty of addiction in one form or another. the word addiction is much like the word drug, its meaning is now lost to the people. addiction is something people would rather not be associated with, like the word drug. addiction is just one part of being human, tho i prefer to refer to it as habitual. we are no more then creatures of habit. we become consumed with our trends and our routines. we like to repeat ourselves over and over as soon as we get some kind of desired result. is that not addiction? complacency, an unavoidable result of comfort, the bane of mankind. all different people have different needs and wants and will seek out their fix. for some it is money, for some it is the thrill of the hunt, and others, who suffer from illusions of grandeur, it is getting "the big one"(that is not possable cause even if they get a "big one" they must have a bigger one then that) or trying to relive "the good old days" and not accepting change and refusing to acknowledge and accept it as a part of their life.

i often say "it gets easier to lie to yourself every time you do it" until you simply can not be taken seriously anymore.

people often relapse in drug use or any other addiction for that matter. -triggers- -scapegoats- -enablers- -stress-
but i believe you will find that these people never learn anything new, they use the same tactics as always. but they themselves can not see this. over time you begin to see "tells" or "symptoms" of regression.

in my life, i have seen this many times from those close to me, and am also guilty myself. i still spend a lot of time trying to learn new things, change behavior, and mannerisms but it is hard. and i did not have great role models or good direction beyond my own desire to prove people wrong. now this "lone wolf" mentality has helped me alienate people. my life experience has helped me tons and has given me walls that i can not see around. it is only when people point these walls out that i even know they exist. i have worked on a few and have found the root of many.

in the end we all get out what we put in i guess.